Hey everyone! I felt that I hadn’t posted a text post in a while so I might as well post about something significant that I’ve been thinking about lately. 

Not to say that I have actually been diagnosed with OCD or whatever, but I feel I have very compulsive attributes. 

When I don’t have everything organized in my life I feel really irritable, figuratively and literally. When I wake up, I begin cleaning. It doesn’t even matter if it’s my own house, when I stay at my friend Roberto’s house, I’ll clean all around me. I’ll clean for the entire day sometimes. I’ll organize and clean things that no one will ever see or notice, and I’m not sure why. If I don’t, I will feel depressed and unfulfilled. After I have cleaned, I shower. I’ll shower and brush my teeth profusely, I need to feel as clean as possible. I always have to feel like everything is as clean as possible to relax, and I’ll always look for something to clean/ correct in my area. I’m probably coming off as if I’m a serial killer or something…. lol

Again, I have to feel like everything is organized, it’s difficult to explain. I need to feel like I have a plan for everything and I have to know what I’m doing. 

Anyway, I’m currently writing this while trying to hold a conversation on skype, so if I seem to have gone on about something that didn’t make sense, just know that this post didn’t really have my full attention. lol, thanks for reading.